Friday, 14 July 2017

Hangin On .

Assalamualaikum and hello . How how are you ? I hope that you are in the pink . Okay memandangkan Ai dah tutup data . Ai cuti esok . Ai nak mengemaskini blog Ai yang dah berhabuk gilos ni . What is the subject ?

Love .

Someone asked me, what is the worst part about being in love ?

Trust me , no matter what anyone says to you ; real love is a struggle. It is a steep hill and you have to reach all the way to the top. It is a forest and you have to go to the center of it . It is a maze and you have to find the fucking exit .

It is not a fairy tale baby . It is not anything that close to it.

Either loving or to be love by , you have to see the scars and accept them. You have to see the flaws and accept them. You have to see imperfections and accept them. You have to see the person you love doing terrible things and still love them for who they are.

Dear boy ,
And no , she isn't the easiest girl to love. She has this bad habit of overthinking. She tends to overreact more than she should. She gets a little insecure every once in a while . She will be needy for your attention. She will want to literally take up all of all your time, and she will require a lot of reassurance. If anything, she is everything you would not want in girlfriend.  She is not capable of fully trusting you . She does not know when to stop fighting with you even if she is wrong. She has no problem pushing you away if she feels like you are close to hurt her.

I am sorry behalf on her ,

If loving her will stress you out . If loving her will make you angry . If loving her will break your heart at times . If  loving her will test you . If loving her will challenge you . If loving her will change you .

It may get so demanding that you will be tempted to walk away . It may get so hard that you will think about giving up . It may get so complicated that you won't want to deal with her anymore.

Loving her means you get to see her at her worst and vulnerable and that is something you will have be strong enough to handle because she needs someone who is patient enough to understand why she is who she is today .

I know ,

It is not gonna be an easy relationship with her ; but if she is in love with , then she can promise that you will be loved with such passion and intensity that you will forget what life felt like before she came along because she will always be there to put your heart back together after breaking it . Maybe she is not the best at being loved , but she is pretty amazing at loving.

Dear girl ,
He is confusing you , isn't he ? One day , he likes you but the next day , he doesn't really care much about you . One day, he can talk to you all day , but the next day , he doesn't really have much to say and could go days without talking to you again . One day , his full attention is on you but the next day, he'd rather be on his phone and see what everyone else is doing rather than spend time with you. One day he's being all lovey-dovey and flirting with you nonstop but the next day, it feels like there's no connection and chemistry between you two whatsoever. One day he is trying to get you in the mood but the next day , he tells you that he is tired and isn't feeling it . One day, he is the sweetest guy to you which reassures you as to why you care about him in the first place, but the next day, he is the biggest asshole which has you second guessing what you saw in him in the first place.One day, you feel so close to him and everything just feels to natural and right but the next day, you feel so distant from him and everything just feels out of place and wrong. So now, you don't even know how to feel or what to feel.

 Well i know ,

At this point , he have to know that  , it is not that you are frightened of attachment, you are just frightened of getting so close to someone that won't be able to get reach one day.And i know you love him . Oh that asshole . He doesn't event know why you love him as much as you do , but you really do . He made you feel like the most special girl in the world but nowadays, it is different .  Why ? He is different. Does he realize that he is not the same guy you fell in love with . And it is like you don't even know him anymore .

Dear asshole,
Please remember how to love her again or you will actually lose her and as much as she doesn't wanna leave , she can only take so much until she had enough. And you have to know , even she doesn't know how long she can stay with all this thing .

After all ,

Love is about of taking risk . The risk that will bring you in two different ways. It is between you will get happiness at the end or you will broken into all pieces .

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